Now it becomes time to make the hard choices, and to bear responsibility for their outcomes. If the weather werent so unfavorable, I would stay the course out here in Las Vegas, and slowly gather my resources, or at least tread water. However, the weather makes that impossible, and according to the forecast this will not change in less than 10 days. Additionally, there is no guarantee that the weather will improve enough after 10 days to continue out here. So to remain in Las Vegas means a slow drain on our remaining resources, with little chance of improving our situation. It is the slow death. Nowhere in the region offers anything better for street performances. So that option is closed for now. The processing situation is bad, but not necessarily crippling. I have options. The underlying issues that I have been facing since 2008 have not gone away, there was simply a blind spot that I was able to take advantage of. It sucks, and it introduces a whole layer of uncertainty on to the already sizable risks that I have to take to run my business. On the other side of the country I have a couple of volunteers ready to go. Some of them have spectacularly large breasts. Its been years since Ive had such a large concentration of opportunity waiting for me and ready to go. In the normal course of affairs this would be a no brainer, cold and unprofitable here, the mother load there, I go there. However, this is not the course of affairs. If I move forward with this then I am betting the farm. Everything is on the line. The money that could be used to survive the winter is going to be risked on production. The vehicle that I live in will reach 200,000 miles, and Im risking a drive belt or the bearing that takes out the alternator. The shoots themselves could not pan out. There could be a technical problem. Anything can go wrong, and there is a great number of possibilities, and if I fail my assistant will also bear the consequences of that failure. Its a big decision, and I wish I didnt have to make it. I wish I could turn my back on everything and abstain. I dont like being forced to take risks based on circumstances beyond my control. However, doing nothing is a choice and the outcome of that choice doesnt look all that promising. Going forward with this risk, if I can come out even with the surplus of four (or more) new videos, then that will be my victory condition, and its better than slowly draining resources with no gain. Although if this blows up in my face, I will certainly wish that I would have simply found somewhere to huddle in the cold and wait things out. There really isnt a choice. My position is not strong enough to wait anything out. If I am not pushing forward as aggressively as I can with the hope that something will catch finally, then how can I expect things to turn around? I push forward, and hope that fate allows it.
Posted on: Wed, 04 Dec 2013 19:49:06 +0000
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