O.K......ITS BEEN A MINUTE BUT HERE I GO... AND YES, IT IS A LONG ONE!! I JUST WANT TO TAKE THIS TIME TO THANK THE GOD OF MY UNDERSTANDING, WHO I KNOW TO CALL JESUS CHRIST, FOR TODAY! TODAY......AS IN THE ABILITY TO NOT LET MY THOUGHTS DICTATE MY FEELINGS AND MY FEELINGS DICTATE MY BEHAVIOR TO THE POINT WHERE I END UP WITH NEGATIVE, UNDESIRABLE, CONSEQUENCES OR WHERE I END UP LOSING MORE THAN I WOULD IF I DIDNT JUST THINK BEFORE I SPEAK!! AS MANY OF YOU KNOW THE PROBLEMS IVE HAD IN THE PAST WITH A PARTICULAR CARE-GIVER ASSISITING ME WITH MY MOM AND DAD, AND HOW, EVEN THOUGH IS HAS TAKEN ME WELL...WELL...WAY OUT OF MY COMFORT ZONE TO CONTINUE ALLOWING THIS PERSON TO HELP ME, THANK GOD THERE IS ALWAYS A CALM BEFORE THE STORM...AND AMAZINGLY, AFTER IT!! I JUST THANK GOD, TODAY, FOR A BETTER WAY TO EVEN LOOK AT SITUATIONS...TO HONESTLY ASSESS MY ROLE IN THE PROBLEM AND SOLUTION, TO ACCEPT THE REALITY THAT NO MATTER WHAT I DO, PEOPLE MAYBE NEVER LIKE WHO I AM OR ARE NEVER SATISFIED...AT LEAST THATS THE PICTURE THAT HAS BEEN PAINTED FOR ME, AND TO SURRENDER... TO NOT FULLY REACT, AS I ACTUALLY WOULD HAVE, AND HAVE, IN THE PAST, AS MUCH AS I WANTED TO. BUT WITH ALL THAT HAS HAPPENED WITH THIS PERSON, WITH ALL THE TIMES IVE TAKEN THEM BACK IN, WITH ALL THE TIMES FORGIVENESS WAS EXTENDTED, AND WITH ALL THE OPPORTUNITES TO STILL HELP THEM, DESPITE PRIOR OFFENSES, BY CARRYING OUT A PLAN THAT MY FATHER INITIATED FOR COMFORTABLE HOME CARE FOR MY MOM WHILE THEY BOTH AGE & ENJOY THE REST OF THEIR DAYS. I COMMITTED TO SEEING TO THIS, AFTER MY DADS DEATH, AND HAVE BEEN ABLE TO DO SO, ONLY BY THE GRACE OF GOD. I CAN EVEN ADMIT AND FOR A LONG TIME, THIS TIME AROUND, HAVE BEEN MIND BLOWN BY THIS PERSONS POSITIVE, ENERGETIC, AND ENTHUSIASTIC WILLINGNESS IN HELPING ME WITH MY MOM. I AM SO GLAD FOR THE OPTIONS AND SPIRITUAL SOLUTIONS THAT BETTER ENCOMPASS AND DEFLECT THE NEGATIVE EFFECTS OF HAVING TO LET SOMEONE GO, YOUVE HAD SO MANY EXPERIENCES WITH WATCHING THEM, AND MYSELF, GROW. I AM GRATEFUL, TOO, THAT THERE ARE MORE THAN ONE WAY TO SKIN A CAT. THAT WHEN LIFE THROWS YOU AN UNEXPECTED CURVE, OVER AND OVER, YOU FIND IT EASIER, EACH TIME, TO DEAL WITH BECAUSE YOU REMEMBER WHOS REALLY IN CONTROL, GOD, AND WHO NOT, ME OR THEM, AND THAT GOD WILL WORK EVERYTHING OUT...ESPECIALLY RIGHT IN THE MIDDLE OF THE CHAOS. BUT WHEN PEOPLE, AFTER YOU KNOW THIER CHARACTER AS SHOWN TO BE VILE AND THEY ARE DECEITFUL IN THIER MISSIONS, AND CONTINUE TO OFFEND YOU, OVER & OVER AGAIN, ITS TIME FOR REAL TO RECOGNIZE REAL, AND THEN MOVE ON. IT TAKES WHAT IT TAKES WHEN YOU ARE TRYING TO DO THE RIGHT THINGS FOR THE RIGHT REASONS, AND GOD DOES AND HAS ALWAYS HAD MY BACK, IN THIS EFFORT. FOR THIS I AM GRATFUL THE SOLUTIONS ARE ALREADY IN EFFECT!!! GOD NOT ONLY DOES JUST ENOUGH...BUT ALWAYS MORE THAN ENOUGH!!!! JUST YESTERDAY, IN CHURCH, THE SERMON CAME FROM THE BOOK OF NAHUM 1: 1-7, HOW THE LORD WILL NOT LEAVE THE GUILTY UNPUNISHED.(verse3). AND THAT IS WHAT REALLY KEPT ME FROM GOING WHERE I WANTED TO GO TO HANDLE THIS SITUATUION IN WHICH I WOULD BE JUST AS GUILTY AS THE OTHER PERSON!! I AM SO GRATEFUL FOR THE WAYS OUT GOD CREATES WHEN YOU FOLLOW AND TRUST IN HIM. HE IS DEFINITELY A POWERFUL FORCE TO BE RECKONED WITH AND IT IS NO DOUBT IN MY MIND THAT HE IS WORHTY TO BE PRAISES AS THE TEST THAT WAS GIVEN ME,TODAY, WAS PASSED!!!! ALL I HAD TO DO WAS BE STILL AND KNOW!!! THE LORD IS GOOD, A REFUGE IN THE TIMES OF TROUBLE. HE CARES FOR THOSE WHO TRUST IN HIM.(verse7). ALTHOUGH TROUBLE DID NOT STIR UP IN THE MANNER IT HAS IN THE PAST, AND AS OF YET, CONCERNING THE OTHER PERSONS ACTIONS, I KNOW THAT GOD WILL PREVAIL. I HOPE THAT THIS PERSON KNOWS THAT THERE ARE NO ILL-FEELING TOWARDS THEM OR THE MISUNDERSTANDING THAT THEY CREATED, ON THIER PART, IN AN EFFORT TO CONFUSE AND STIR UP ANGUISH IN MY SPIRIT. MISERY LOVES COMPANY...BUT THIS IS A PARTY IM GLAD TO REFUSE THE INVITATION TO!! I DO, HOWEVER, APPRECIATE EVERYTHING THEY HAVE DONE TO HELP ME WITH MY PARENTS AND TO LIGHTEN MY LOAD OF RESPONSIBLITIES. I AM STILL, FOREVER, GRATEFUL! I AM HAPPY TO KNOW THAT GOD HAS ALREADY SENT ME THE HELP I NEED TO CONTINUE IN MY COMMITTMENT AND AM THANKFUL FOR THE PEOPLE WHO SHOW UP TO THE CALL OF SERVICE!!!
Posted on: Mon, 04 Nov 2013 21:10:45 +0000
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