OLAs HONEST TEA: Burnt Out Thanks to consistent coffee intake... Im a lil burnt out this Friday night. I havent been sleeping well, because the amounts of coffee I drink keeps me up at night until the morning and crashes me on to the couch in the late afternoon... but still, like most Friday nights, Im glued to my laptop. I just did something, and I have to be honest. It feels great. Okay wait, my stomach just turned. Maybe it doesnt feel all that great. Lemme just tell you what happened then and now before I get scared and just delete this entire post. Although right now, Im happy I took the step... I just hope I will feel like that much later. Situation 1: Myself and person C were, I guess you can say, having a sort of cold war. In this situation, I did launch the battle line. Anywhoo, after several months, I found myself in a bit of a sticky yet highly emotional storm. As a melancholic person by nature, when I have these storms, it is not pretty at all. I sha needed a way to reach out to the person, with my tail between my legs to say sorry and also surrender to end the war. So per someone elses advice, I sent an e-card. I mean like we actually prayed about sending this e-card and did it in good faith. Buhh yeeaaaaa, just like the gif says... it only seemed like a good idea. Not long after, I had reason to believe, I completely embarrassed myself. In fact, I am convinced, that action by me gave others a picture of my face as a sticker, so they can stick it in the dictionary and use it to replace the definition of Stupid Fool. Yep. I was embarrassed for a long while, until I realized hey, it doesnt really matter. I just asked God to make it better. Situation 2: Person A & Person B are fighting. They werent having a cold war. Nuh Unh Bro. This was a full out, high blood pressure action thriller, and somehow I was placed in the middle. Now thinking of it, its kind of funny. From 1, 2, 3 to in a matter of seconds there was a full out war. Things escalated quite drastically in a short matter of time. More funny, is Im innocent. But anywhoo... per advice of a very Wise Woman, I left things alone. I gave it time. LOL I was quite afraid to do anything else mehn. Clearly, I was a bit inexperienced and was fearing any catalytic boom effect, for a second time. All I could do was urge person A to amend things. Then on a particular night... well tonight, Person A called me and said they were in the same location as Person B. I then got the idea of letting Person B know they were in the same place. I wrote out my lil text message and then completely thought this was a bad idea. Then I remembered how I made that possibly stupid move in the First Situation. If I could be so stupid then, why not do it again for people who matter so much more to me? My very next move, was pressing send. Now, Im sitting here writing this... After pressing send, my thought was, this is an opportunity for God to turn my ashes into beauty. Maybe that boldness that got me embarrassed last time can make things right this time. Now, Im having mixed emotions and hoping I did not make things worse. You know what.... Good Night.
Posted on: Sat, 22 Nov 2014 07:12:56 +0000