Ok Ok I was wrong You are all out there !!!! Sorry about that .I guess you will hear more from Me ! And Lisa I didnt see any paper work saying you were taking The Night off ???? Ha Ha . I am going to be honest and up front with You all . Iam not doing too well .It seems like I got thru Christmas with no problem about Doug passing but now I have more time on My hands all I have been doing is Crying for Him . I see him every where at The Lodge. The saddest thing is He thought no one Loved him at the end because of the pain he was in and the pain pills Doug was not the Doug we all knew and Loved . Bob Granddaughters and MY extended Family has taken it very badly losing their Uncle . They ask If they could write something about Uncle Doug and Have Me put it in The vaulth this April with His Ashes . Well I received it in the mail this Week and I cant stop crying thinking of what they each wrote . Chloe at The End of Her Message wrote : I Will Never Say Good Bye ....gee that is Breaking My Heart .Those Girls Loved Doug so Much as He Loved Them . They always helped Him work and do the rooms when they visit Us and Doug would Paid them for their work . They Loved That . He would tell them dont forget We have to do it again the next day too !Their First Job . I Loved watching them working along side of Doug and making sure they were doing it right to please and make Doug Happy . If Doug only Knew How Much he was Loved and How Much We are Hurting now that he is Gone .Poor Bob has Listen to Me on The Phone go on and on and he is trying his best to Help long distance and I Thank Him for That . My Kids are trying to comfort Me the best they can by being next to Me all the time . I walk and walk and think and think of Doug and Wonder what I could had done different to make him stopped smoking . He had so Much to Live For and to offer . What keeps Me going are the Guests. I have someone to take care of while they are here and I put on a Pretty good front for them . Behind in My Private quarters is when I lose it . I pray that I can be stronger and accept Doug passing in Time . It is so hard when You lose someone that You build Your Life around and they leave .
Posted on: Sun, 18 Jan 2015 20:20:18 +0000
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