Ok so here goes a Sunday post. Knew I got attacked by the devil couple days ago. I sent a friend request to a important person in church and got denied. The anxiety set in. Then proof of my growth took over pretty fast. It is none of your business why they dont want to be connected not everyone wants to be friends on facebook. Childish, but a necessary step to balance over 2000 friends on facebook. Got to have rules or facebook becomes negative. Yay me I grew! Nope here comes more someone was chatting with me through IM about what church I was speaking at next week to their youth. She then wrote it is so interesting other churches let you speak to their youth. I said why is that. She said as radical as you are and air your dirty laundry you will probably never be in leadership or hold a stake calling. Talk about daggers into the gut! Why because I am honest out loud. It is how I heal. It is what I feel the Lord has asked of me. It is how I connect with people on a different level. I spiraled. I was depressed a whole day and thought I will always be that girl. Then I did my scripture study the next morning and the words were so refreshing to me. If I am not called then I was not meant to be there by the Lord. Thats it. Maybe my life is to serve and that is it. I am ok with that. It doesnt disvalue me. I then saw that I would have been depressed for a week or month a year ago. Does that mean that there are people that would never call you? Yes, why there are, there will always be clicks or people not operating in the spirit. God will deal with that. It is none of my business. I am to focus on each tasks placed in front of me, each job the Lord gives me, and my family. The rest is someone elses issues, problem of me, or a lesson I am not ready to see. I felt like the angels sang out loud. We have to be just as concious, owning, and aware of that we are failing at then we are that we are conquering. Some say you are either in or not. I disagree sometimes you are just holding on with lots of failures just trying not to lose your faith. But you are holding on! You arent ever fully in because we dont have enough knowledge to understand what fully in is. Look to what you are failing not to be a weakness, but an opportunity for growth. Always reflect.....
Posted on: Sun, 28 Dec 2014 20:24:23 +0000
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