Ok, so what was discussed yesterday in therapy... I too am losing a great deal of the conversation and I expect more still will be lost so I will need to put it some place where it shall not be lost; here is as good a place as any. (I will note that one of the things we have noticed is that the group of which we have been talking does not seem to read nearly as much as they listen and watch so here really is a good place.) The T and I had a very interesting conversation yesterday. It was very open and intent on looking for solutions to the communication problem we having with this uncooperative group inside. (We do have a name for them, but I hesitate to tell you what it is since I think it may alert them to what we are talking about here and I do not want that. I want a place free from them.) The T has never spent so much time with me as he did yesterday since there always seems to be something of much more attention than that which would be talked to me about. Things, however, were turned over to me and I think it is best that we come to some sort of conclusion here to our problem. I made it known that I have done some research into the subject of uncooperative/persecutory alters and I think he was a bit taken back by all that I had to offer to the conversation. She is usually much more reserved and does not offer up information unless directly asked; she is surprisingly shy around the T. I, honestly, am often rather reserved as well since we only see each other for brief amounts of time and I am usually leading him in a direction and not there to chat. I could see that he watched intently as I made some sense of what is happening and also me as I formulated ideas. I have a horrible habit of breaking in others turn in speaking and yesterday was no exception. I think he was surprised that I was as talkative about this group as I was and probably thankful to be getting some help in this endeavor; he has checked with me for courses of action, but has always kept his impressions to himself. One of the things he said that I can feel this other group trying to remove from my memory is the concept of pain. The T postulated that perhaps they feel a certain degree of pain the others talk of things that were painful. He hypothesized that they keep us quiet in an effort to not have to feel the pain themselves. They do not seem to mind if the others are in pain, but do not want to feel it themselves. This tells me that have the ability to feel (assuming he is right), a concept that is hard to remember. Their inability to express any sort of reciprocal relationship makes remembering that they have also likely known some trauma hard to retain. Things started to go down hill (and I fear they will now as well) when I started to brainstorm ways to keep them from having to hear about anything painful when the others are talking about it. They did not seem to appreciate my efforts to keep them safe and began waging an attack to keep this from becoming a plan of action. Since I see that they have responded so vehemently to this concept, I am willing to guess that the T was spot on. -L
Posted on: Tue, 05 Aug 2014 21:41:12 +0000
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