Okay! So, I had my first meeting yesterday with a counselor [this is as personal as it will get] and there were some realities in place. I need to work on overreacting with my emotions that make people freak out; and that [and I am really sorry for even saying this] but a harsh reality that I encountered was that in a sense I was being deceitful. I was angry for a bit, and I still am to a degree. I just need help with this...I was blind to see this, and [SATAN] I will win this battle. Please, i do not want to lose this friendship, if you are reading this [and you know who you are, and the situation]. I had one of the most relevant, and yet beautiful dreams. I feel that Jesus has led me to know this truth. I am sorry if I seemed to be fake and/or deceitful- none of this was my true intentions. But now I not sure how I can talk about this, without your help. I had to address this publicly, because I want EVERYONE to know, if I hurt you in anyway- I am truly sorry! I was blinded by what I thought was good, not realizing the hurt I put on people in general. I am a sinner, but I know that Jesus will help me win this battle. No...Oh No! Why did it take me this long? I have to thank these folks for allowing me to see this...I did not want to die thinking I was perfect...when I did not realize how much of a liar I can be. I now know why he is angry with me, and he has every right to be. let him fight it out! I know my wrong, and I want to make it right. Please forgive me! I ask you to not hate me. From now on, I am taking my mask off, and reveal the real in me that Jesus imposed upon me. This is a terrible mistake...forget all the other things [which only encompasses the problem moreso], being deceitful to my friends....Satan get AWAY FROM ME!!!!!!!!!! I truly love all you guys....I knew i would get hit with a harsh reality, but now I need to make this right. I am accepted to my wrongdoings, and I want to talk with you about it.
Posted on: Thu, 08 Aug 2013 16:01:57 +0000