Okay. Time for a frank discussion on depression after hearing of Robin Williams suicide today. First of all, he was a brilliant comedian and actor...and I am very sad he was unable to claw his way out of that deep, dark hole depression takes some of us into. Depression is a chemical imbalance in the brain and NOTHING to be embarrassed about. I speak to people about it all the time and my son is willing to as well. I believe Depression is hereditary, especially with my son being diagnosed and a suspicion my Dad had it when he was alive. Ive already heard newscasters and some on Facebook say, He seemed so happy all the time! Well, we are good at hiding our depression in public. Hows it feel to be in the depths of depression? Heres a quick glimpse... I use to shut all the shades in our house after my son and husband left for work. I would not answer the phone unless it was from the school or my husband. I was tired, tired of living a life of deep sadness and self-loathing. I blamed it all on my husband - it HAD to be his fault! I was miserable. I thought of moving to another state - alone - or worse. I ate. I drank. I didnt think I was worth anything. I was also very angry at the world and it wasnt unusual for me to have a little road rage come out while driving. I also had PTS syndrome (like soldiers get) and would roll the scene in my head of watching my Dad die in front of me and my son and yell out his name...in stores...or wherever I was... I had anxieties you wouldnt believe and it almost ended our marriage. I was a helicopter parent to my son because I felt for sure I wasnt worthy to have a wonderful boy like him and had to protect him from unseen dangers.... it was pure hell. All my anxieties are gone now... (irrational fear of: flying in planes, driving at night, thunder storms, needles, people! (yes, people) and many more....) Meds and counselor saved my life - and my sons. Im truly happy now - it was like going from black and white to full blown color when I healed... I just wish Robin had the fortune we had to plow through.... it is a serious disease and MUST be dealt with if you or someone you know may have depression... it isnt just being sad... and you cannot tell someone to snap out of it. It is, once again, a CHEMICAL IMBALANCE in the brain!!!
Posted on: Tue, 12 Aug 2014 01:13:16 +0000