On this night 2 years ago, I was waiting on Josh to get to my apartment... a few hours later was the last time I saw him. I guess I walked around in a methadone haze for the whole first year and when that fog cleared, I was still waiting on Josh. Scared to death to confront what I had failed to move forward from, I was feeling Everything for the first time in years- opiate free And it Hurt bad. So I ran and hid behind a huge quantity of sparkly crystaline distraction.. But My Chemical Salvation almost killed me. Undoubtedly this has been the hardest year of my life.. but the things Ive Experienced have been worth it and despite the problems and pains, Ive actually been Happy and Present. I know this is a harsh and cruel time of year for everyone and the temptation to run is almost overpowering. .. but hold on and think about how fast it all changes. You dont get to see how it ends unless you hang out for a bit longer. Ill be glad when its over too ..
Posted on: Tue, 26 Nov 2013 03:07:32 +0000
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