One daughter wants mom to take her to Glenwood Springs to ghost hunt and climb the mountains and swim in the hot springs. The other daughter wants me to cook for Thanksgiving because I used to all the time. One daughter wants a silk Christmas tree and the other insists on a real one. One daughter wants me to look at the college she is joining and the other wants me to take her to the roller skating rink. One wants me to send her great grandmother funeral flowers and the other one wants me to see what she bought from her trip to Nasa in Texas. There have been days I didnt think I would see my children again. The silence and sadness was like being in an empty cold cell underground with no sense of time, no sound, and unspeakable torment. This day has been spent with my children, trying to address their needs and giving them my attention. We went shopping for Thanksgiving and Christmas. Ran all over town and my daughter bought me dinner because she has a good job shes happy at and wanted me to be proud of her. Its fulfillment beyond any other relationship. Sad thing is/was I used to be unable to enjoy any of it because of anxiety and depression. I was locked away in my own mind. I was so busy today. IM so tired. I struggle. I consider myself so extremely lucky to have it all and to be able to KNOW what I have. I feel it. The joy. I didnt think I would be able to ever feel joy again. I hope this helps someone. Someone that was as sad as me to know, it can change. You can find the sun again. What a wonderful day.
Posted on: Sat, 23 Nov 2013 06:00:21 +0000
Trending Topics
Recently Viewed Topics
© 2015