One day a long time ago when my parents cut me off and would not help me I was so hurt and angry that I blamed them for everything that I did! I blamed them for my whole life turning out the way it did cause dont you know its always someone elses fault and I was the victim! Well 11 years ago I got clean and about 10 years ago I realized I was not the victim but the person who was in so much denial and resentment and heart ache from the choices I made in the past! I wanted nothing more than to take it all back and OWN MY SHIT! But it was too late!!!! She was gone! The one person who loved me no matter what was gone forever! Never to talk to again! God had called her back to watch over everyone she loved and to be with my dad again! I learned a strong lessen then and it was to never make those same mistakes again! It has been difficult at times but my parents also taught to to take care of myself by showing me how they took care of themselves! They used tough love and that took so much love and dedication to allow me to hit my own bottom and not rescue me! I know they are both watching over me always and thats really not what this is about! I too have had to make those decisions through out my 11 years! Letting people go that mean the world to me is the most difficult thing ever!!! If your reading this you know who you are!!! I am faced with that decision again and I am so heartbroken! You are an amazing young woman and you have so much to offer! You are a gift from creator and I cherish you with my whole heart! I am so sorry you have chosen to do the things you have and I can not help you until you are ready to get help! I have to say I love you and know that Creator will watch over you and take care of you! I am stepping out and will only have contact with you when you get help! This is your path and I will be there when your done and until then I love you with all my heart and hope the absolute best for you! Be safe on your journey!
Posted on: Sun, 14 Dec 2014 20:55:28 +0000
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