POST-PICATO PISSEDSCRIPT: Chapter 2~ At some point today I expect Ill hear from the SW med internist my friend on the SW Board contacted re: the facial post-Picato topical skin cancer treatment ptosis I described yesterday. I am patient but eager. & reluctantly determined to enlist help. This one I sense is a huge uphill climb. Since I am so optimist resilient by nature, it is especially notable how brutally this hit me yesterday when it dawned on me that the post-treatment issues are no longer side effects but rather after-effects. I was caught off guard because I was not examining myself yesterday when I happened to pass a mirror and caught a glimpse of the image & it was alien. I may PIST a picture of that image at some pint. It was the same this morning. There is something in me that cannot complain since my physical stamina & 20/20 vision is now back to my abnormal great full tilt. But to have no idea what I will see when I look into a mirror is unreal. Yesterday I of course went to the forest with my dogs & the usual positive endorphins were present. And, as I drove to meet Lauren for a drink, I spotted homeless Charles walking upbeat peppy in the new New Balance shoes I bought him for Christmas... wearing the pullover Grant gave me for him that we left in the clear box on his forest path on Christmas Eve. I know Charles well & I can tell you by the way he was walking that my decision to do that gameplan that generous Grant then helped me deploy, buoyed Charles. Our act on Christmas Eve morning reset his trajectory. Before I had noted how sad dejected his gait had become. So I feel conflicted because I feel like myself but am understandably unnerved by now to realize that I have suffered actual damage to my looks & disillusioned with those in whose medical care I was supposedly trusting. I did speak yesterday with Derm doc nurse practitioner How yesterday & she was Comforting but close-mouthed because they are afraid that I might make this issue legal lethal. When of course all I want is answers & then Action. Last night having a Scotch with Lauren at Lee Harveys & seeing Viking there was soothing. And knowing tonight I will be with Sarah Jane seeing the soon to be released DVD of the October 18th Happy Murder Stories show sounds like a refreshing diversion. All I want is for things to feel normal instead of feeling that the new normal if my year end gift from the. Gawds. Happy New Year !
Posted on: Tue, 30 Dec 2014 15:15:06 +0000
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