People are like Hey man.. howve you been? Whats new? and I want to say something like Hey dude! You know, just thinking.. Im realizing more and more in my life that Im restraining myself from truly living, you know? Like, in a weird way I think Ive been in denial of my own mortality, so constantly racking my brain about life and death all the time sort of blurs the two extremes into a sort of safer, compromised state of living. Like if you didnt have a healthy balance of sleep, whether too much or too little, you would always feel like youre dragging your feet, never too awake. Ive been thinking Ive been that way for too long, and I think Im ready to wake up now. And Im hoping its more than just a successful parallel at a metaphor or just words or something and I can apply this new perspective to a happier, healthier life.. to accept and face fears, and also allow myself more joy. ..what about you? Howve you been? but I know the more acceptable answer is Not much, dudes, you?
Posted on: Wed, 06 Aug 2014 00:45:59 +0000