People ask whats wrong Jodie here is a little insight... The guilt I feel over takes every emotions most of the time, I spend hours thinking, my head whirling with how my messed up head effects soo many people and I feel the best thing I can do for everyone is to push them away. To delete them from my life or delete my life. End it. Simple! But then..... I know I am a good caring person deep down however right now Im consumed with an illness without a label thats driving me insane so whenever I can I want to escape it ... Go out , be me , chat to people any people , make jokes be kind to others have fun, Away from the ones I hurt soo much everyday . Forget the evil I push onto the ones I love soo much. I fight the horrid feelings in my head soo much that I feel like I should be a Sargent leading people into battle but then I crumble ...done with fighting and Iv lost.... Lost the battle not for myself but for thousands around me that all rely on me to be the strong one. To be brave, stand tall, give orders and direct,guide them the way. So now the Sargent is done I can no longer see through the battlefield , I can no longer direct and give orders its all to much, overwhelmed with the strongest of emotions that cant be controlled . ....
Posted on: Sun, 29 Jun 2014 19:41:37 +0000
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