Piece of me: I was thinking today how I dont truly understand addiction I dont guess... because at any given time if Ive wanted to lay something down to never touch it again I can do just that... but it crossed my mind that I do have an addiction... i am addicted to love or even the possibility of love and to be loved... true love, honesty, loyalty, respect, truth, LOVE!!! Ive done some crazy things and made tons of mistakes all while looking, searching, thinking I was in love or loved back... and out if it all I claim it was out of LOVE but I question myself alot of times not really knowing or maybe not even believing in it outside of it being just a fairy tale... i mean I know we all hurt, and make wrong choices and bad decisions but love TO ME is the greatest thing there is or could be... and all the time Ive searched for it I dont guess Ive ever really truly loved myself.. i settle for anything with high hopes of LOVE and have been let down more times then Id like to admit and with that I too have let down others... but I see relationships like my aunt Elizabeth Porter and Mikie Porter and Darlene Cothran and Lacy Cothran and Connie Jones and Bruce Jones and I see THE PERFECT RELATIONSHIPS... but outside of them select few does it truly exist for others... we all seem to work against our other when were supposed to be on the same team working towards the same things.... i dunno why Im sharing these thoughts but this was one of mine today!!!!
Posted on: Thu, 30 Oct 2014 20:21:05 +0000
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