Please post this anonymous My son the light of my life was born on October 25 2011 he was 8lbs and 8oz and 21 inches long he was perfect my husband and I were so happy we spent every second loving And kissing him on November 11th 2011 my mom and I became nervous because he had been sleeping for almost 4 hours which was weird because I breast fed so I began trying to wake him up and we noticed that he was turning pale we rushed him to the hospital my husband held him screaming when we arrived the nurses acted like we were crazy they said he was fine we wanted him transferred to a bigger hospital after a few minutes the nurses saw that we were serious and they began drilling into his legs and asked for me to leave the room I sat by the door hysterical the doctor finally came into the hall and said he was brain dead and asked if I still wanted him alive I said I didnt care what he was I wanted him alive after about two minutes the Doctor called me into the room he was gone I held my precious baby and kissed him I cut his hair and wrapped a piece up for memory finally the hospital said we needed to leave so I got hysterical again I dont remember much from the next year but I do remember going to the morgue before he was cremated and holding him for hours the man who ran it is amazing and let me spend as much time as I wanted even after I donated his organs I wanted to die honestly even when I was pregnant with my daughter but now I see that my son sent her to me an I live for her doctors dont know why my son died but God will tell me when I am holding my angel again until then I will have to give all my love to his little sister who looks just like him I sometimes hold my daughter sobbing thinking about how much I love them both my mom lost my oldest sister at three days so sometimes we get together an talk about our Angels Im so glad I can share with other angel moms god bless I love all of you because you know my pain I began writing this song after my angel Jesse James grew his wings in 2011 I was unable to finish it until my second angel was born in 2013 I wasnt going to share it until my sister convince me that it could help others who are dealing with losing their angels I had an angel, for a moment. I had a meaning, for this life. I had an answer, for all my questions, when you were mine, when I held you tight. I lost my angel in a moment. I lost my meaning in this life. Now all these questions go unanswered, why go on with life. So God you need to hold me, close in your arms. Because only the strength of your love could ever fix my heart. I feel broken I feel lost I feel like Im alone in the dark Lost in a place and time where we would never part Now your there with Jesus and so is my heart Lord fix me Im broken Lord find me in lost Lord pull me out of the dark Because only the strength of your love could ever fix my heart I didnt know it, until I saw your face. But The Lord heard me, and put his hand upon my face. He knew I needed something, to keep me I this place. Out of all his wisdom, purity, and grace, he gave me another angel to love and to raise. Know that I love you, you have my heart. Even if your gone, to me we cannot part. And now Jesus holds you in his arms. My Lord fixed me I am not broken My Lord found me When I was lost My Lord cried with me here in the dark If this touches one person who has felt the pain that I have I will have accomplished the world
Posted on: Mon, 20 Jan 2014 23:55:33 +0000
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