Please share with dear friends who may benefit from a different, awakened perspective on suicide.... WHY YOU WANT TO DIE SOMETIMES - by Jeff Foster If you ever feel like taking your own life, if you ever feel a longing to die, if the thought I want to kill myself comes to visit or comes to stay, do not fear and do not despair. Celebrate that a deep intelligence is at work in you. Know that its the most natural thing in the world to want to die. It is not a sin, not wrong, not a sign of your weakness or failure, not a symptom of a terrible disease or darkness inside you. Its an urge as old as the universe itself, something all human beings have known in some form or other. Know that you are not alone, but connected to all humanity in your aloneness. The urge to die doesnt need to be followed or worshipped, but understood; not numbed away or acted upon, but embraced for what it is. Translated, I want to die means I feel homesick, and I desperately want to go home, but dont know how right now. The urge to die is the natural urge to shed the illusion of the separate self, to let go of the exhausting burden of me and my life (who you are not) and rest deeply in presence (who you are). It is a call to remember your true home beyond all earthly homes - here and now. To taste your own taste once again. To come out of the story of past and future, and live in this precious moment. To be here, fearlessly present, courageously alive, no longer at war with the pain and bliss of life, no longer resisting the slings and arrows of existence. Use the thought I want to die to begin a deep meditation on the nature of self. Who will die? Who would want to kill a self? Who lives now? Who breathes? If the self can be killed, if it can be loved or hated, is it really who you are? What is the intelligence in you that knows that the self is impermanent and can be lost? Is that intelligence not fully present and alive and awake now? The successful self and the failed self, the wonderful self and the terrible self, the self that wants to die and the self that wants to live, are these not all images, pictures, ideas, movies, floating in your eternal movie-screen presence right now? Are you not beyond all of these concepts? Are you not the space for it all? If you have taken self to mean less than who you truly are, of course you want to kill or end it, for it feels too small in your vastness. If you know your self as Self, your own presence beyond birth and death, then you cannot really kill yourself, for presence cannot kill presence, just as the ocean cannot kill the ocean, and the sun cannot stop shining, even though it burns. You are tired, friend. You feel burnt out, exhausted. You shine so brightly. So rest, allow yourself to feel exhausted for now, and know that your longing to die is not a mistake but an expression of great intelligence, reminding you of your deep love of life, your unlimited nature, and your cosmic innocence. A new life is dawning for you. Stay open. There will be unexpected gifts and connections. - Jeff Foster
Posted on: Fri, 08 Aug 2014 22:46:25 +0000
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