Pregnancy Update: Last Wednesday, at 7 weeks, 1 Day pregnant, I went in for my ultrasound follow up and doctor detected an empty gestational sac so I was diagnose for a miscarriage. I opt for natural tissue passing just because I read the risk that woman accumulated after having a d&c(miscarriage procedure to fully remove tissue from uterus). One week passed and I had no cramps or bleeding. Until 2 days ago, at 8 weeks, I started having brown discharge and mild cramps then followed by bleeding the next day. On the 3rd day, today.. I started bleeding heavily with labor pain-like contractions. It was so bad that I called out from work this morning. Pain came and went but by 5pm, my symptoms had worsen. I had combined symptoms of fever, vomiting and contraction. I felt like I was about to give up, lay there and die. Hubby got scared and told me to go to the ER, but I am so stubborn. I didnt want to rush to the ER and have to wait in the waiting room with these horrible pains. 30 mins passed, and I gave in. Hubby drove me to the nearest Kaiser ER while I was in the back seat laying in pain. Funny story: the only way my contraction would subside was when I hummed the I love you Barney song & knock, knack song.. to myself. LOL. When we got to the ER, we were checked in really quick. I was there for 3 hours.. They put me under an ivy, and removed the rest of my tissue. I was lucky enough to have a complete tissue pass without having to have a d&c procedure done so now I am back to normal with a complete miscarriage. Feelings through this pregnancy journey: in all honesty, Im not going to say I am numb.. Im relieved that this process is done but I felt both gain and loss. Ive gain the fact that I am able to conceive a child, feel the early perks of pregnancy and carry a child in me for 7 weeks but I feel loss from the fact that I never got the chance to hold my first born. Never got to hear his/her first cry. And never got the chance to see my babys face. Im putting my faith in gods hand that he gave me this miracle to learn about love. You never really know what love is until you lose it. Ive lost many things throughout my life and without blaming fault on anyone. Ive learned to accept and appreciate whats given to me. This by far was the best miracle anyone can ever ask for. I really want to take this time and thank all family and friends for your concerns. You lift my spirits high, thank you for your comfort and support through these tough times. Itll get easier for me. I just need time to heal.. Today I am going to balls my eyes out, but tomorrow I will be much stronger. Life is a blessing and I am thankful to wake up everyday and still be able to LOVE... We all have love in our heart, lets use it to help heal. Praying that i will overcome this and give back.
Posted on: Fri, 08 Aug 2014 06:34:48 +0000
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