Quality over Quantity? i know everyone says u will know when enough is enough. my best friend slowly dies as we try everything we can to help him. i know this time of year is supposed to be full of joy and happiness and for that i am sorry to so many. i havent been the best person to be around and my familys xmas is suffering. i find myself crying at least once a day. I have been full of so much HOPE throughout this process. on friday we got some even worse test results and i feel my hope is fading. i am constantly asking myself if today is the day. secretly i wish he would go in his sleep so that we woudnt have to make the decision. my heart hurts. a piece of me and my soul will die with my big guy. yea i know some people have a dog they love but we have a dog that everyone loves. he has touched so many lives and has many people that love him. he even turns people that dont love dogs into dog lovers. i see him everyday at the shop and he has a permanant seat in my truck. i remember when he used to ride shotgun in my bimmer. I keep asking santa for a xmas miracle to make him better but i know its a losing battle. i would give anything for a new kidney, a miracle even. when are u keeping him alive for u and not for him? he has so much to live for and so much more to do with all of us. sorry for typing my words that are upsetting on xmas eve but in some small way it feels better to release a bit. whoever u are reading this thank you and sorry if i ruined ur day. merry xmas. I LOVE YOU CHOOCHIE BOY u will alwayZ be my BIG GUY
Posted on: Wed, 24 Dec 2014 11:44:37 +0000
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