#QueensConf1985 I have, and continue to be abused by my parents. Not physically, but mentally. Consistently judged and commented on and derided to no end, even when locked in my room i can hear them talking through the walls at me. It got to the point where the mere sight of my parents would produce a physical headache. from this, i have developed a deep mistrust and dislike of people and has caused no small amount of depression. As such, i havent made very good friends. Sure, there are people around me whom i hang out with and talk to, but i feel like im living a lie. Because im always pretending to be happy and fun and joking around but i cant feel it. i feel blank, and its getting harder for me to talk to others because i have nothing to say anymore. i havent done anything with my life, until university i have been under the control of my parents and now i dont know what to do or where to go - i may be book smart, but im not street or life smart and i feel cheated. My greatest friend, whom i consider one of my only real friends, i have had a crush on for as long as ive known them. They are the only person with whom i have been honest with. But i waited too long to express my feelings, and we went to different universities. They didnt want a long distance relationship and moved on (we are still very good friends). But i still care for them deeply and we still visit each other a bunch and i know it can never happen but i hold onto this little hope just for the sake of pushing through my life. but im tired. and everything else just weighs down so heavily i feel like im becoming too needy - always turning to them for company and fun. and i dont want them to worry about me. but i also feel like they dont care anymore either. Time Submitted: Tuesday, 12/30/2014, 11:47 AM
Posted on: Sun, 04 Jan 2015 21:02:24 +0000
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