RAMBLED THOUGHTS!!!!! I have been running for so long away from facing the facts That a suggestion of a thought is not to react I pretend I dont care and that my heart does not hurt However things seem to catch up and become a whole lot worse I bleed from my tears in the thought that I have not yet become The ruler of my world yet I know I am not the only one I pace up and down just pondering within my own thoughts Yet my head is clear but my heart puts me out of sorts I cant remember the last time I actually allowed myself to feel Unsure of which emotions would eventually be real I dont yet understand the betrayal that burns within Yet I understand my prerogative to let go and start to begin Not all shadows are dark from inside to out Not all love with leave you in a cyclone of doubt Not all of lifes adventures will be full of smiles and cheer Not everyone that comes into to your life will always be there So many journeys have led me to different events So many different journeys have left my heart discontent So many journeys I have always played the fool Shrugging even the simplest moments off even if they were cruel I hid behind a smile that was filled with all sad Darkened a heart that was once unhurt and left filled with bad Created a perception that I was always okay Like a scene in a movie where you slowly find your way Pressures to become relevant within lifes walk Cursed with the inability to even begin to talk A mind so clear with a heart that always leads Left in the coldness of its own demonic pleads Pleading for the sanity to no longer travel alone Have a sense of belonging a place to call home Whispers that turn to voices in a seductive trance A soul for the taking within a moments glance Open is a world and people who hold my hand Slap me silly when I can no longer stand People that love me and always believe in me Flaws they acknowledge but never fail to see Once lost in a life where destruction was a must Where all were enemies and never given a reason to trust Promises were broken and all was just pretend Couldnt bare the thought to be weak or ever depend Depend on another to catch me when I fall The life I was use to was a choice to ignore Scared and afraid burdened by hurt Which heightened the surroundings to an all time alert Awaiting the day that they would soon leave I Like All Kinds of Music judging a shell for all they did not achieve Broken was a faith in humanity that love would concur all When people only stand with you in the good and walk away when you fall Flames begin to die and smoke becomes to smother Life and its meaning of an interpretation of a mother Oceans become rough and start pulling you under Soon a sky that was clear starts to be smeared with thunder Blue turns to black and red becomes white When is the moment that things will just turn right? Green deepens in a heart that is always ready and true Yet a moment of a thought knows that love sometimes leaves you with a bruise Winds blow and moments come and moments go People reap sometimes more than they sow Rains wash away a pain that left you in tatters And memories stabilize a mind to everything that matters!!
Posted on: Thu, 24 Oct 2013 09:49:13 +0000
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