Randys surgeon calles this morning and were still on for surgery Monday now we have to be there at 7 am with surgery starting around 930. We are scared but know we have a Big God who does great things and its going to be a lengthy difficult road but were gonna do it! Of course, our grandsons are stubborn headed lil boys who refuse to show up and meet their paw paw b4 surgery and this is heartbreaking for us but we know they must keep staying for a reason this is Randys only worry that if something happened he wouldve never seen them but I know he will. Randy has been emotionally up and down but feels better the past few days thanks to some logger who moved in down the road from my home for the life of me I will never understand this mans obsession with trees! He knows when the first loa dog logs comes out at 3 am and instead of coveting another mans wife he covets some mans logs as they drive by lol. I hope they have logging in heaven or hes gonna be in trouble for wanting to cut down all of the beautiful trees. He would go to work tom if I would let him he says once he gets up in there he would be fine I have no doubt he would so hes ready to go back to work instead of watching the world go by in his recliner. Weve been blessed by so many and thankful for all yall have done for us we would not have been able to live this long without yall the system is a sad place and even though were approved for disability which randy fought me tooth and nail on you cannot draw a check until you have been disabled for 6 months the lady was like everyone should have 6 months worth of income in a saving acct she evidently is not married to a logger! Hopefully in the next month randy will get a check even though he says he isnt disabled and will be back to work ASAP I pray thats the case. His surgery can last 8-14 hrs with no complications it is either a cure you or kill you type of life change but as of now this is our only option and they say what dont kill you makes you stronger weve got a50/50 chance but a100percent God. This will likely be a months again road were on and please pray that the cancer has not spread anywhere the ct scan is not 100 at all times and we know their is still cancer there but it can be masked the dr told us so prayers its contained still to where they have it pinpointed but they wont know without certain until they get in there. Im scared to death afraid for the next shoe to drop but I know I gotta pick myself up for this fight. Put his has been a life changing experience in our lives but let me tell you it puts everything in perspective. Randy was working hisself to death 6-7 days a week throwing up every day but never missing a day of work plus working alone on the weekend to make money well the money was what we thought we needed because gosh weve got 2 babies coming and they have to have the best of the best,oh you wanna talk about feeling bad I feel horrible pushing him about work it was literally killing him and you know what I dont even know where it went or care I just wish we would of been sitting here broke together. The old saying money dont buy everything is so true and were proof of that it likely helped Randys body to break down more. Everyone just enjoy your family and quit worrying about the petty things and trying to keep up with everyone else because enough is never enough. We have learned this the hard way and I will tell you a sickness like this will tell you who your true friends are and who you just thought were true friends we have been blessed by complete strangers who have helped us out and we never knew them just doing Gods kind things. We are truly great full for everything but we need prayers thats one thing that you never have enough of. Were in the fight of our life with this cancer now we just thought we were before but this is the hard part. We should not have been off chemo so long but we wanted to explore every option before taking this route and this is the only route we can take its taking everything we have to do it but I know we must. So I ask that everyone remember us in your prayers add us to church prayer list and pray hard for a miracle. Also say a lil prayer for belle bless her heart shes swollen beyond measure and is miserable she has endured a tough battle carrying lil boys around for almost 37 weeks with no complications! But that I know is the result of lots of prayers as well I will miss our Mondays but they have come to a end now and she has changed it to Wednesday so she can be with her daddy on Monday. Pray for these lil boys health and that their paw paw will be woke up before they arrive if not they will be waiting on him. This is a bittersweet time in our lives because the week they may wanna induce is this week so its hard to be hopeful because of the unknown but these lil boys are loved beyond measure and their paw paw talks about them constantly and everything hes gonna teach them their poor momma!
Posted on: Fri, 19 Sep 2014 15:32:56 +0000
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