RantWarning! Please accept my apologies for this. Desperation and stress are waring me down. MovingOn. I threw away some of my toys today. I fear I may end up homeless or worse. In that action, I was able to do something constructive. My mind drifted to the concept of value. I had a good running chat with myself. I find it better to edit for time. I want to respect your attention and patience. My Life has always been devalued. Im still amazed by that. My bank has decided my new business wont be funded. Its too new. Policy and all that. Time and money will quickly disappear. Im judged by many to be of no real value. Its their opinion. Im worried about my two cats. MyBoys. Theyre the last of the feral colony I cared for and considered my Family. They, and my ex-feral, were the limit I could take with me. (Ill skip details. No one cares. I wont bore you.) It sickens me that they may end up in a kill shelter. Some folks went so far as to attack me and call me a fraud, villain, and worse. They dont know me. Some never did. That didnt matter. They saw a handy victim and struck. Cheap shots, if you ask me. (No one did.) Anyways. I have a couple months left. MyBoys dont know details; yet, they can sense the stress and unease. They didnt ask for this. I wanted us all to enjoy a Life of Love. Together. That might not end up they way I hoped. Ive done Good. I AM Good. That doesnt seem to matter. Im creative. Humans and animals enjoy my company. It seems that doesnt matter either. Im alone. Scared. Looking into a future without MyBoys and no reason to live. Thats Evil. Ill fight to the bitter end. I might post my YouCaring link again (if my enemies would allow me that). (All they have to do is watch me die. They dont need to make me suffer. OhWell.) Im going to keep trying to network with humans. The SBA has SCORE. I may try to figure out Kickstarter and IndieGoGo (again, if my enemies allow that). This is not the Life I wanted. OhWell. Ill spend as much time as I can with my cats. I dont think I could walk away from them. Theyre my Life. Sadly, my Life aint worth much, and might not last much longer. So, there it all is. I talked to myself. Now, in a pitiful display, Im on Facebook writing to strangers simply because thats all I have left. Another day in Hell, I suppose. That said; Ill champion Good. Ill try to be here to support others in need. Ill bring what Love and Light I can spare. OhWell. Its not like it matters. I wonder if I, myself, ever really mattered. Anyways. Im off to the REAL world. Ill search for my Center, and be back later. Aloha. =^..^=
Posted on: Wed, 20 Nov 2013 21:42:07 +0000
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