Reflection on 2014 has been a doozy for me...partially because my mind and body still feel like its still September, spinning in a 50 First Dates/Groundhogs Day time warp. Since the accident, Jonny and my life has been completely changed. Many of those changes bringing pain with loss of friends and family. On going physical pain, emotional pain, and spiritual pain. This reflection has been excruciating to experience however, my tools that I have reminded me that this glimpse in time has me in a cocoon of evolution. With the ending moments I have of 2014, I want to thank everyone of you who have stood by, behind, and supported Jonny and I. Im so grateful for the love and continual support our community has given us. Thank you for those who have stood by me when Im at my weakest, most venerable, and impossible to be around. For those I have hurt in my process of healing with my words or actions, Im truly sorry. If it wasnt for Jonny Flores and Jenny Florence supporting me every day and each holding my hand, I dont know what I wouldve done, or where I would be. Its very difficult to explain the fog that I exist in, and as time has passed patience for my recovery is running very thin...for myself as well as everyone around me. I focus on healing everyday, and its very frustrating to live the reality that I do. I pray in 2015, that the fog will lift. I pray that I will emerge from the condiment of my cocoon. I pray to have my mind, patience, and clarity restored. I pray the physical pain will release as my physical body will be healed. I pray to the Heavens to have my life back. I pray to be a good mother, wife, and friend. I pray to live...not just exist. My resolution for 2015, and my reflection of 2014, is a prayer. With this prayer I include all of my love and gratitude for each and everyone of you.
Posted on: Tue, 30 Dec 2014 02:47:09 +0000
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