Repost. “Come on, you can hide it from everyone else but me.” I gazed at Melanie and smiled. She looked into my eyes as though she was trying to find something, “How do you always come to know?”, she asked curiously. I just shrugged. I didn’t know the answer to it. Well, I didn’t even want to know. I just wanted to know what had been going on with her. I speculated something was definitely wrong. So, I kept gazing at her, demanding an answer. She ducked and I think I saw tears in her eyes. Those eyes which conveyed a lot more than words themselves. Those eyes which always had my back no matter what. Those eyes which shone the brightest whenever she smiled. Perhaps, my whole world seemed to light up for that time. I wonder if anyone else had noticed it. I frowned and mumbled, “What’s wrong?” “Everything!”, she shook her head. I stood there, like a pillar waiting for her to speak up. She was so good at reading my mind that I almost resented myself at times for my incapability to read hers. Maybe I just wanted to apologize for not being able to figure out what was wrong with her. “They did it again.”, she cried. I hated to see her that way. I knew what she meant, but I asked, “Again?” She nodded. “Why me? Why always me?” They deceived her again. I was annoyed. Completely. I just wanted to confront all of them and punch them in their faces so hard that they won’t even think to mess with her again. But I couldn’t. The truth is, I’ve never been the violent type. I absorb everything in without any resistance and hardly react if it aggravates me or hurts me. No, I’m not passive. I just don’t let anyone know if I’m hurt or angry. Maybe, I’m bad at expressing things. Just maybe. But when it comes to my best friend, well, I can’t just listen and do nothing about it. She blurted out, her voice breaking into sobs, “I believed them this time but huh, guess what? They did it again. I thought maybe this time, it’ll be different. But…” “I hate them.” I said with clenched teeth. She looked into my eyes and realized how utterly furious I was. Her eyes glittered as their dark brown colour dispersed in those tears. “They use me, get their work done and then humiliate me. I don’t even know why I believe them in the first place. Well, I’m just a freakin’ fool and huh, they know that very well. Very well.” “No Mel, that’s not true!”, I explained, not knowing what else to say. She was just naive. We both were. I knew that very well. I was angry at myself too for not being able to help her. Her agonizing eyes made me wanna cry with her. Somehow, I repressed it. There was a pause. I regretted my inability to do anything. Just anything. “Let’s go, Hayley” she said after a while. It took me a minute to respond. “No…no we…we just can’t...leave.” I stammered. She glanced at me with interrogative eyes as in to ask what I was up to. But, I couldn’t tell her. “Oh okay, let’s go.” I said at length, wiping her tears. None of us said anything about it then. The next day, suddenly Mel came running to me, hugged me. “They apologized. Can you believe it? Hayley! They all apologized.” A corner of my lips curved up seeing her smiling, “Hey, that’s good.” “Yeah, it is! But I wonder how it all suddenly happened. They are all so nice to me now!”, she was smiling so broadly that I couldn’t help but notice. I pursed my lips, evading an eye contact. “Uhh…let’s not care about it, now!” She raised an eyebrow. “Um, I mean, that’s doesn’t matter now. They apologized. They regret what they had done. That’s what matters the most.” I fidgeted. She nodded and smiled. That moment I knew that smile held something more than just happiness because of that apology. I smiled back. We decided to walk back home together after school. We hardly exchanged any words but I could make out that something was definitely going on in her mind from the way she was smiling to herself. After a while, “Hayley…” she said it so sweetly that her voice echoed in my ears for a minute. There was something so mesmerizing about the way she said it all that I was willing to hear her forever. “Thanks,” she said, blinking. For what? I didn’t ask it, I just didn’t want to interrupt her because I knew she understood it, like always. Always. “Thanks. I know you did it all.” And she smiled her Melanie smile. The best smile. It’s the smile I swear I can trade anything to witness. Eh, just not her. That moment, I knew that she knew it all but I pretended that I didn’t know what she was talking about. “What did I do?” I asked, perplexed. She raised her eyebrows. I grinned looking at her reaction. Damn, she caught me. I rubbed my forehead,”Ehh…you know…” “I know. I know you did it all. Thank you, Hayley. Thank you…I was just too tired of them all, I couldn’t bear it anymore….” “It’s over”, I chimed in, “Don’t think about it now, please.” She nodded. We walked ahead. I could see in her eyes that she wanted to say more but perhaps, she just couldn’t find the words. I was a bit astounded that she came to know I did it all. Like always. I paused and asked, frowning, “Wait…how… how do you always come to know?” She didn’t stop and when she was a bit ahead of me, she turned around, winked and prompted, “Just like you always come to know.” -Himani :)
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