Right at this very moment, on any morning in my past, I would be getting up, walking out to the front stoop, sitting on the first step and lighting a cigarette. There would be birds chirping and squirrels jumping from my house to the tree in front of me. There would be the sound of a distant dog barking and my neighbor returning home from his daily mall walk. I would light my cigarette, get about 4 seconds of satisfaction from it and then start to get grossed out by it. By the 6th or 7th drag, I will become grossed out by it and put it out. Thats it. Im not missing out on anything by NOT doing this 15 times a day. My cravings are going like this... Certain times of the day (morning news reading/coffee drinking, right before work, Once when my rush has chilled out at work, when I get home from work and about 3 times when I am sitting with my husband or friends in the evening. I get the major urge to jump up and go outside. The actually craving for the nicotine is small, but I really have gotten into the habit of going outside often. Last night, as I sat with my husband and friends, it was hard not to interrupt our time by random trips to the front porch. What on earth am I going to do with all this freetime?!? and MONEY~!
Posted on: Tue, 19 Aug 2014 12:58:12 +0000