Save me from myself part 2. Why was this a mistake you ask? Because, for once I let myself be in a good mood; for once I didnt stare down at the ground as I walked through the forsaken halls of this prison they call school. I was going outside to my car so I could drive home when I saw harry and a really pretty... no, GORGEOUS girl laughing and joking around. But this wasnt any girl; it was the person whod made my life in middle school a living hell. Ruby. In the sixth grade, we were best friends and Id told her everything including my biggest secret. When my mom was together with my dad, hed beat the hell out of me and her. When we got into a big fight, she stood on a table in the cafeteria and yelled to everybody about it and even said that no one loves me, not even my father. From then to the tenth grade people pushed me around and attacked me. Their reason was that I was used to it. But enough of that. I walked passed the two of them at a fast pace hoping harry wouldnt see me; unfortunately I wasnt so lucky. Harry came slightly jogging towards me. Hey, y/n, right? I nodded my head and kept walking ahead. Hey slow down! Harry called to me. I stopped in my tracks and spun towards him. What? I spat. Harry raised an eyebrow and stepped back a pace. I looked beyond him and saw ruby scowling at me. I quickly turned my attention back to harry. I just wanted to know if youd let me take you to lunch tomorrow to properly apologize for earlier? Needless to say I was stunned, but still uneasy. I dont think your girlfriend will approve. I said coldly. Harry looked even more confused. Ruby? Ha! Shes not my girlfriend silly, shes my step sister. Her mom and my dad got married a while ago. Sooo? I shook my head. Though I was relieved she wasnt dating him, he still spent every day with her, which was fine... I just dont want anything to do with her.Im not going to be here the rest of the week. Sorry. And I walked away before he had a chance to convince me to go with him. The whole drive home, I kept getting angrier and angrier with myself. Why do I always have to ruin things for myself? Im so stupid.. why cant I just be happy? Im never going to find anyone who accepts me because I always scare them away. I thought to myself. The severity of my thoughts escalated quickly. By the time I got home Id already felt like taking the pain away. I felt like I was going crazy on the inside and no one could see it. I quickly greeted my mother and went to my room. The minute I walked in the door I searched for my hidden blade. I was having a mental break down, I felt like screaming at the top of my lungs, my brain was clouded with all the awful things that have ever happened to me. When I found the object of my destruction, I cut and scratched and tore my skin. Blood was rushing out of my wrists and arms. I was going to keep going, but one thing stopped me. I remembered what happened earlier this morning when I bumped into harry. He could have spat mean words in my face, but he didnt. He was kind, and tried to make up for it. I put my blade down, quietly cleaned myself up, and went on facebook to message harry and apologize, and asked if the offer was still open. To my relief it was. He asked me what was wrong earlier today, Id told him I would explain tomorrow. I wasnt so sure about it, But I owed it to him and myself to do the right thing for once. I just hope it doesnt backfire in my face. -mrs.tomlinson
Posted on: Fri, 18 Oct 2013 09:47:37 +0000