Seeking Love... When Nina fell in love with me (notice I said SHE fell in love with ME! lol!) in 2010 when I moved home following undergrad in Ghana, I was accused of many things. O yeah :-) I was accused of favoritism, liking some and not liking the others, loving some and despising the others, etc. etc. So STRONG and so many were the accusations that though I was not the one yet in LOVE (lol!), I chose to gently push away and keep her at a safe distance, lest I be further accused. And so she’d call, I’d never call back. She’d text, I’d refuse to reply. She’d love and I’d play it safe. But you see, here is the thing. NONE of that deterred Nina. So I spiced things up a bit. I was harder on her than the rest. I forced her to be accountable. I pushed her to be responsible. I literally JUICED her orange and pulled all the filling out. I squashed her olives till I saw oil. But again NOTHING deterred Nina. Mistakes were easily overlooked with the others, but no, NOT with Nina. Excuses and tardiness were accepted from the others, but never from Nina. And again NOTHING deterred Nina. This young lady loved me when I was impossible to love. And yet, NOTHING deterred Nina. So aggressive was she in pursuing my heart that when others call me “Sis Maggie” or “Magdalene,” like John who unapologetically calls himself the “disciple that Jesus loved,” Nina chooses to intentionally personalize things by publicly calling me “My Maggie.” She LITERALLY wakes me up every day for work and would call me at random times (when I’m in a fit and wanna SCREAM :-) ), just to SING to me. And not to mention, the hundreds of text messages a day and the cyber stalking on Facebook just to steal my pictures :-) I doubt the Secret Service keeps a much tabs on Obama as Nina does me. Lol! She has seen me in moments of strength and has with the same passion and fortitude stood by me in moments of despair. And guess what? Strangely enough, she has loved me anyway. For 5 years, NOTHING has deterred Nina. Her family, friends and even her twin Lynn have all come to accept this inevitable, unexplainable, unflinching love. Wanna know how the story ends :-)? Well, as hard as Ive tried, and as resolute as I was to not be “accused” of partiality and the like, I could no longer resist such a pure, innocent, resolute, determined, driven, compelling, annoyingly SEEKING love. And so after many years of chasing me, it seems Nina’s love FINALLY caught me! It gripped me. Took hold of me. Consumed me. Consoled me. Refreshed me. Healed me and has become such a major and integral part of my well-being and sobriety. At times when I would literally fold up and hide in some dark corner, here comes annoying little Nina with her dimples trying to force a smile or uplifting verse outta me. Truth be told, Nina has come to play such a crucial role in my life that words cannot fully describe and she has somehow silently, naturally and so effortlessly grown to be the closest of my “little” friends. Is the essence of these few paragraphs just to let you in on one of the most valuable relationships of my life? No, it is not. Is it just Mag’s overexcited mind at work again after a rather heavy Sunday dinner? Again, it is not. So what then is the morale of this little expose? Simply this. God has so remarkably used the stubborn love of passionate 19 year old to show me just how seeking HIS infinite love can be. Through her eyes, I’ve caught a glimpse of something I sang in Sunday school but perhaps never fully grasped, “Jesus LOVES me ‘tis I know for the Bible tell me so.” Through her persistence over time and distance, I have gotten a greater appreciation of God’s own breathtakingly beautiful, eternal love for me. No, I’m not perfect, but He loves me and is working on me anyway. AMAZING stuff! We often erroneously think love is expressed in dollars and cents, houses and cars, watches and rings, pictures and perfumes, but when you come across a person that will stand by you in tears, uphold you in adversity and know your greatest limitations and yet pray for you till you somehow start to morph into the ORIGINAL purpose of God for your life, that is someone who TRULY loves you. So to all the Ninas in our lives, as 2014 comes to a gentle close, God bless you. But there’s more. Guess what? God loves me even more than Nina ever can and HIS love seems to be catching me more and more each day… Hmmmm…. The seeking love of God…
Posted on: Sun, 02 Nov 2014 20:13:32 +0000
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