Selfishly two months ago I made a statement and posted it for all the world to see without thinking about all those I would affect. Two months later I am fighting for a marriage that many have told me to let go. All to often many of us forget why we fell in love. Many of us stop doing the things our partners deserve, not realizing or understanding the hurt or damage we are causing. For two months I begged, pleaded, cried and begged some more and it only pushed her further away. I remember 17 years ago sitting behind Ann Marie in history class and not realizing that I was slowly falling in love. I wasnt trying to get her affection, I was merely doing what I felt I should do regardless of what I receive in return. 17 years later I have strayed so far from that path. To easily we decide to give up. I have gave my wife many reasons to walk away, give up and move on. To expect her to fight for our marriage would be nothing less than selfish. Its not her fight to keep the marriage alive anymore its mine. The reason I am telling all of you this, is so that you may understand what is really important. To remain and grow in love, just do the small things and never stop doing them, not because you want to get something in return, do it only because its the right thing to do. Wake up, pick your head up and let God heal who you are. Let him lead you down the path he has always intended you to go. Though it makes me afraid to let go and give God the mess I have made of my marriage I know it must be done. I love my wife more than I ever have, I cherish her more than when I first kissed her that special day when we were both 16. I must also realize that even if I do all that I feel is right, even if I sacrifice all I am to save my family my marriage, it still may never be again. Think about that.....Think about that before you fight/argue over something small. Think about that before you make a decision on your own without including the person that loves you the most and can be affected by your choice. Think about that before you stop opening doors or saying I Love You just because. Think about that before you ignore the needs of the one who loves you. I have prayed every night for god to heal the heart I have damaged even though when he heals it, it still may never be mine again. No matter what it takes fight for those you Love as God has fought for you. Do the right thing only because its the right thing to do. For those of you who may be facing what I am going through now... Please remember this.... Remember why you fell in Love... Remember that when it all started it was your Actions not your words that got them to notice. Your change is their change
Posted on: Wed, 01 Oct 2014 21:06:21 +0000
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