September 12, 2014 I had a day go from hope and positive thinking to messed up appointments and being put off all day for someone to just read me the results. By 3:30 PM MY ANSWER WAS READ… As many of you know I have been told that I have kidney cancer…this was something that just hit me like a baseball in my back right flank area. I traveled back to Florida to get a second opinion and a third. I had a biopsy on my left kidney on Monday. I found out today that the right kidney as well as the left is cancerous. I went in today knowing that all this was bullshit. After all I have no real pain on the left side. Here is something that I have learned….pain of any kind is not normal. I have had back aches for years, had been told I had cancer before and that turned out to be wrong, yet the pain continued even after a surgery. I thought then that God had blessed me by me not having cancer. I did not question the doctor, no one did. But here I am again in the position but with the entire test taken. I am 53 years old and felt healthy just a month ago. I even went surfing just a month ago. I ride my motorcycle for fun and have been living a carefree life. Even though my mother passed away, just almost two years ago from cancer. Cancer has taken many members of my bloodline. I knew it after all I did not fall into the drinking, smoking and drug life ever….I was different. So there I said it, I HAVE CANCER…Today is a down day, I am human. I don’t intend on fighting cancer, my path is designed to accept the knowing of having it, finding out everything I can about my body and needs to e healthy. This will include PRAYING, and asking others to join me in this. I am going to eat healthy by the bite, which means looking at what I am going to eat and saying no right before I put it in my body. Taking in all good GOING GREEN MORE…not eating meat, not drinking garbage. My body is not a trash can so why do I put garbage in it? I will also try to do some form of movement daily, leg lifts, walking, bending, and stretching. But while doing this, listening to my body. Always listening to my body and what I need to get by and feel good. I also have to be the driver of my own car meaning I will let people in fact want and need people to inform me of cancer. But before I leap I will take time out to think and not let people sway me into something I am not informed enough about. And that I have not prayed about. I am not a hero nor am I lucky to have such a gift …I am scared as Hell, but will not let CANCER take me without a workout. I love you all and am just asking for prayers and to get a call every now and again to just say Hello. I know that my family has been through so much with the passing of my mother and just recently my brother in law. I know we all have limits and if this is too much for you right now, know that I realize that you love me and care just taking time to heal in order to just get by the day. That is what I am doing, just healing to get one more moment of strength to e able to use my SANDYIZAM POWER// I myself am praying for Nanizam….Maryizam…Ronizam…for us all to get the power boost from God and the Angels and the people here on earth that are happy just to be alive…This is how I feel Happy to be alive…Moving forward in my journey every moment. Sandy Leu
Posted on: Sat, 13 Sep 2014 03:02:53 +0000
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