She was glamourous, beautiful, fun, sweet as pie...she was thoughtful, she was kind, she was a little sassy....she made me smile, she made me laugh, she was a friend...she loved my parents and my grandmother, she loved me just because, she loved my kids because she loved the rest of us... She was 42, she was a school teacher to the happiest 2nd graders ever, she was a wife, mother, sister, daughter...she was energetic, enthusiastic, and precious. She fought like a wildcat against the cancer that took her way too soon. She didnt feel sorry for herself (at least where anyone could see it)...she comforted me when i was there to comfort her. She has wonderwoman underoos, she has a tinkerbell bedspread. She has a playground, a hot tub and a trampoline. She has house payments and car payments and gymnastics lessons and wrestling matches and baseball games and cheer competitions to attend, she has boo boos to kiss, she has a husband to date, she has backyard cookouts and boat rides and vacations to experience. She has children to teach, sisters and neices and nephews and a mom and brother and friends to love. She shouldnt be gone. I am selfish, I dont want to let go. I prayed for a miracle every time I had a thought of her (which was extremely often) I dont want my mom and dad to lose their friend and neighbor, I dont want my nana to lose her buddy, I dont want to witness the grief and confusion this is going to bring to so many. I understand that this is not about me. I am proud of her faith, I am proud of her family, I am proud of my familys role in the last 5 years of Suzannes life. I only wish that there was no such thing as cancer. Today, remember this family, remember that there are blessings and tragedies everyday, remember that you have a chance everyday to work on your legacy. No matter if you are 18 or 80. 42 years were enough to build a legacy that will forever be in the hearts of hundreds--although, Id give a hell of a lot right now for it to have been more like 80. Rock on you kick-ass angel, heavens gates have flung open wide, the party must be fabulous! I will keep you in my heart, love love love is all Ive ever had for you--I will do my best to always make sure that JM and ME know that!
Posted on: Tue, 27 May 2014 16:31:34 +0000