Sitting here taking the most deepest breath I have taken in such a long time. THAT TIME has finally come! My oldest daughter is 10 almost 11 and my youngest just turned 8.... Here is the background of my DEEP BREATH. I created a life book when I brought my oldest daughter home from China at age 9months. It took me a year to scrapbook this, before google was the way that it is now. But I created this book for the day that she would ASK!! Over the years we have brought it up and I showed her but it was a quick view and an even quicker change of subject... Just recently I have been feeling guilty about not doing Sashas book and brought that up to both of them. So for the last 5 nights I have been going through 2 pages at a time before OG went to bed (kind of like bed time story time) and have been creating dreams for Sasha before her bedtime. The problem is Sasha heard me with OG and about day 2 she asked me, can I just sit in the room and Learn about OGs story -- Of course I said. So, the last couple nights have been about Birth Mother and Birth Father and the reasons why they may have had to make that very difficult decision. And this is how tonight went.... OG Mom you know I read a book on Raz Kids about China today and it was sooooo fascinating!! Did you know they can only have one child and that Pandas are almost extinct? Sasha did you learn about the Great Wall? OG yea it was hand-made to keep warriors out OG We were probably left because our birth mom already had a child and couldnt take care of us because they could only have one child Mom yes you are most likely right, you were left though in a very crowded place, you know why?? OG so we would be adopted, Sasha was left outside a food market so she would be found. Mom No you were OG Where was Sasha left? Mom Outside a government building. See you both were left someone where crowded so you would be found ------ I have been waiting 10 years for this conversation and it was MORE BEAUTIFUL then I could ever imagine ---- My heart is overflowing with the most amazing JOY ever..... This is why God put us through such heartache for so many years not conceiving!!! This was a GIFT --- I will never ever forget both of their beautiful faces during this talk (OGs glasses were off) and I just peered beyond her eyes and could not stop staring knowing that I wanted this moment engrained in my memory and heart FOREVER!!!
Posted on: Thu, 30 Oct 2014 03:59:27 +0000
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