Sitting on the porch crying wondering why my baby. why ? thinking why couldnt someone alse lived my life for me?i hert so bad. Ive got so many unanswered question . so much dont make sense. i know she had been suffering for many years. i know it was my fault she was repeating my life but worse but she wasnt as strong as i was and am.Things has made me hard. its hard for me to cry in front of people and hard for me to feel sorry for other people. Ive lost a home .a love. a husband. a child. a baby. and thats not even all of it. i just hop God will be more gentle. with me from now on. because i dont like this. was listening to Arloas favorite cd from when she was 16 shadae oconner brought back so many memories of when she was 16 yrs old. today Marjarie and i were talking about what her and i gave Arloa for her 16th birthday. WOW she really got mad at us.but as years went by she laughed so hard at what we did. looking back i wish i would of been more strict about who her friends were and who she dated .my problem was theres not many people in this world i dont like. well Im done venting for now. feeling blessed .
Posted on: Sat, 30 Aug 2014 07:25:59 +0000
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