Six months ago today my world was rocked by a chain of events that happened within 4 weeks of each other. I have felt a heartache that I never thought was possible. I have felt an anger that I didn’t like. I have felt indescribable pain. I have shed more tears than I could ever imagine. I have seen and felt the pain as my parents and siblings struggle with the loss of Greg. I have never wished for so many “just one more….” I fear that I will never be able to accept the new normal. I have doubted my role as a mother. I have watched my children struggle with our divorce. I have experienced true loneliness. I have questioned why me?. . But I also have felt more love than I ever thought was possible. I have felt the Savior’s arms around me. I have felt His unconditional love. I have seen and experienced the comfort that comes from the blessings of the Priesthood. I have experienced a deeper bond with my parents and siblings that I never thought was possible. I met my 2 year old nephew for the first time. I have been blessed to be able to call my niece every Monday just like her dad did. I am thankful that my niece and nephew are apart of our lives. I am encouraged by the strength of my niece as she focuses on the positive and funny things about her dad. I have witnessed and felt the unconditional love from my children. I have made many new friends that were friends of my brother. I have felt all the prayers that have been prayed on my behalf. I have said “I love you” more. I have under estimated my emotional and physical strength. I have experienced true compassion, love, service and support from family and friends near and far. President Thomas S Monson said the following: Our Heavenly Father, who gives us so much to delight in, also knows that we learn and grow and become stronger as we face and survive the trials through which we must pass. We know that there are times when we will experience heartbreaking sorrow, when we will grieve, and when we may be tested to our limits. However, such difficulties allow us to change for the better, to rebuild our lives in the way our Heavenly Father teaches us, and to become something different from what we were—better than we were, more understanding than we were, more empathetic than we were, with stronger testimonies than we had before.
Posted on: Fri, 04 Jul 2014 01:27:57 +0000