So I have had some recent epiphanies involving my own personality. It has always been an ongoing joke that I am a narcissist. And I have been doing a large amount of studying on the subject matter as of late. And find that I may very well actually suffer from narcissistic personality disorder. Its main qualifying traits are pride, vanity, and a lack of empathy, my exact personality. And I say suffer under the understanding that while I personally do not feel like my condition or frame of mind is anything less than a gift (likely due to the affliction in which I speak) it is however, near impossible to maintain a happy, healthy relationship when you are unable to understand and share in the emotions of your partner. And I am now conflicted. I do see how some of the things I say and do affect those around me, but I just dont care. I want to care. I just cant. which is strange to me to know that I care....about not caring! Should I seek professional help for an affliction that I feel is only affecting my life positively, on the grounds that it is considered an illness? Here is a brief description of narcissistic personality disorder as defined by Psychology Today: Narcissistic Personality Disorder involves arrogant behavior, a lack of empathy for other people, and a need for admiration-all of which must be consistently evident at work and in relationships. People who are narcissistic are frequently described as cocky, self-centered, manipulative, and demanding. Narcissists may concentrate on unlikely personal outcomes (e.g., fame) and may be convinced that they deserve special treatment. Related Personality Disorders: Antisocial, Borderline, Histrionic. Narcissistic personality disorder involves cockiness, manipulativeness, selfishness, power motives, and vanity-a love of mirrors. Related personality traits include: Psychopathy, Machiavellianism. Narcissists tend to have high self-esteem. However, narcissism is not the same thing as self-esteem; people who have high self-esteem are often humble, whereas narcissists rarely are. It was once thought that narcissists have high self-esteem on the surface, but deep down they are insecure. However, the latest evidence indicates that narcissists are actually secure or grandiose at both levels. Onlookers may infer that insecurity is there because narcissists tend to be defensive when their self-esteem is threatened (e.g., being ridiculed); narcissists can be aggressive. The sometimes dangerous lifestyle may more generally reflect sensation-seeking or impulsivity (e.g., thrill seeking, bold financial decisions).
Posted on: Wed, 16 Jul 2014 02:33:06 +0000
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