So I spent a long time giving too much of a S*** about what I saw in a mirror and too much time caring what other people thought of me and not enough time reading with my kids, hanging out with my friends and chatting to my husband. I also spent way too much hating on myself or punishing myself for missed workouts or messed up food choices. Then one day I woke up and realised this is not actually living. This is not how I want to spend the next however many years of my life so I started on a road of not caring so much. This road is pretty long and has some days seemed pretty lonely and although I am almost at the end of the road there are still days I have to remind myself to not go backwards. I am not suggesting this is the case for everyone but when I was putting training and food needs in front of family I knew I had lost the balance. I never want to do one workout I dont enjoy, I never want to eat another salad wishing it was a pie (well this will happen but not because I have to !), I never want to count down the days till I can eat something I have craved, I never want to wish days away, I never want to go to bed early because I am hungry. There is a lot of talk at the moment of the loss of Balance and I think about it everyday and how I am lucky to be surrounded by always supportive friends, family and trainers and they will follow my path no matter where I go but not everyone has this I know that. I am working on me now and that is the most important workout I could possibly do. I will eat to train and live a healthy lifestyle always as it is what I love now but I will find balance. Love every minute of your life, live to the fullest, laugh lots and smile for no reason at all I know I have been smiling a lot more lately.
Posted on: Thu, 26 Jun 2014 05:05:07 +0000
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