So You Want to Give UP??? Romans 12:2 And be not conformed to this world, but be ye TRANSFORMED by the renewing of your mind, that you may prove what is that good, acceptable and PERFECT will of God. Doesnt often feel like giving up. Im just NOT a quitter. BUT? I am SO very tired. As in, physically, emotionally, mentally (thank HEAVEN, not spiritually!) exhausted. I KNEW starting this semester, that THIS would be the absolute longest, most challenging, most physically tiring year of my life. Hands down. FULL time PLUS course load, FULL time law firm, FULL time advocacy work, FULL time Mom, ministry at church, my relationship with God, (FORGET the social life.... WHAT in the HECK is a SOCIAL life??? Its called squeeze in whatever friend doesnt mind coming over at 5:30 a.m. for coffee before we put the kids on the bus.... and they DO! lol), back in training for a life long fitness goal on a knee thats about had it! PLUS, NOW trying to organize a HUGE move, INCLUDING that agency, in what is rapidly becoming less and less time. God just keeps throwing open the doors and requiring me to respond in a Mississippi minute. I SO did NOT want to open my eyes today. I am THAT tired. And Im a morning person. (AND a night person, AND a day person!! lol) And I hit that pain threshold.... that single, PRECISE moment in time.... when you question what it is you are doing.... and you feel like giving it up. When I reach those moments (they seem to happen more and more lately), I am drawn instinctively to my knees.... and God reminds me what my purpose is.... what His will is..... the one that He is NOT going to just HAND me.... the one He intends me to utilize all of the gifts He gave me JUST so I could FULFILL that purpose.... YES.... He makes you WORK for it. Idle hands are the devils playthings. (I dont have that problem! lol) But I DO know that when Im walking FIRMLY IN HIS WILL and further TOWARDS a specific goal God has for me because GOD opens ALL the doors, lines up EVERYTHING that I NEED in order to fulfill it...... And I OBEY?? Well, the enemy? That little sh.... (sorry, NO nice name for him... and Im not inclined to be nice to even him right now though God commands us to love our enemies.) sits back and sends all the demons of Hell to TRY to muck everything up. And yet, as long as I am focusing WHOLLY on God? He just keeps gettin it done! I questioned Him this morning.... and He replied QUITE quickly.... and in that split second after He became quiet? I heard my Dad..... my other Dad.... the one God gave me to until He calls me home..... and he said the SAME thing hes said to me EVERY time my life has gotten BEYOND tough..... Youre STRONGER THAN YA THINK, girl! Get back up. You can do this. (I LOVE you Dad for saying it SO often, that I hear it in my heart ANY time it gets rough...
Posted on: Mon, 31 Mar 2014 18:19:20 +0000
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