So here I am again. Single, a wee bit broken and trying desperately to pull myself together, but this time it’s different. This time I’m not hurting because I feel ashamed or apathetic for the man whose heart I’ve just broken. I’m not simply craving the touch of another person or the constant company, contact and human intimacy that comes from being in a committed relationship. I’m not trying to fill a void or embracing some kind of new found freedom. I am simply, heartbroken. And I say this to you not as a miserable attempt at seeking attention or “there there” pats on my back, I say this because it is true. And although it is hurting like nothing I have ever experienced before, I do not regret a single thing. I have felt a profound emotion that I had never known before, true love. I found happiness in another human being by just being in their presence, in their life. Circumstances change, people drift apart and lose their fighting will, but I will never lose that experience. If we find each other in another time, another place, and we connect like we did then, there’s no doubt in my mind that we could be something unbelievably special, but for now, I remain grateful for the privilege to have ever lived through such a love story. I can’t stop my tears; I don’t feel like eating, even the lure of a cold beer or a bottle of wine doesn’t seem to tempt my mind or body into a false sense of happiness. I am hurting more than I could ever explain, but I’m fine with that. Feeling something so overwhelmingly beautiful has to have caused some kind of imbalance in the universe that makes me subject to the emotions I am now experiencing. Although I am losing the company of a beautiful soul, the rest of the world is not, and I am so pleased to know that others get to share in his company. My goal to move to the UK has increased tenfold as I seek to gain new experiences, career paths and adventures I can’t even begin to imagine yet. I am writing more and more new music and am so excited to share it with you all. The support that I have received from family, friends and the now not so strange strangers has been overwhelming and I want to assure you all that my butt is kicked into overdrive and your support will not be in vain. I may not be ready to talk about what has been going on, but in true Olivia Ruth form, I’m always ready to write about it! So keep your ears peeled, your hearts open and keep a keen eye out for up and coming gigs and recordings my fabulous Facebook groupies. Whats that you ask? Am I playing this weekend? Why yes I am! Kingaroy RSL 6pm, see you there.
Posted on: Thu, 03 Apr 2014 07:01:10 +0000
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