So heres the long-ish rant. I have no idea how many hours of live composition (and other musics) I have recorded this year. It was a real pleasure and Im grateful for the opportunities. Im turning 42 soon, and big changes have already happened or are in progress. No need for me to prove anything to anyone (at least as far as my art is concerned), and I can now let go of the idea of making a living with my music. I have invested for over 20 years, and still get almost zero in return and have lost and missed out on a lot in the process, so I will scale back as much as I can until Ive found business partners that really want to work with me. There will still be my day job (i.e. Stick Men (Official), The Crimson ProjeKCt (Official) is no more) as its the only musical activity that helps me sustain my life. I am currently completing some album projects (that will never even make a fraction back of what I and others invested), get the transcription project going for real (the one investment I care about at this moment), and will then start over with a new and more focused plan. Looking forward to be working more closely with Bernhard Wöstheinrich again. And BTW, if you think this sounds whiny or negative, please bear with me. You probably dont know me well enough (or my sense of humor, for that matter). There is much more to this that would require long explanations, and thats another activity that I want to cut down on. Thanks to those people who have been supporting me, much appreciated, and I hope we can continue our relationship somehow. Im not sure how and if my change of heart will show on the surface, that is in the way I look or how I use social media. Also, heres a message to people who ask me to smile: Has it ever occurred to you that there maybe is I reason why I dont or cant smile? And your request does not help. On the other hand, at least I can give this music. And I know its special, even if some tell me I shouldnt say that or shouldnt even feel that way. If I wouldnt feel that way, Id not be creating. Thanks for reading this, and read you here, or meet you at a concert. Very best wishes, Markus
Posted on: Sat, 23 Aug 2014 01:19:58 +0000