So, in one week, both of my children will be in school full time. As a full time stay at home mom, this will be probably as big of a transition for me as it is them. I can not begin to imagine not giving myself to them every waking second of the day (which begins early at my house). So many have told me, good for u, u can go back to work, or take more time for yourself. And sure, those r at the back of my mind, but really I am revolting at those ideas. You see, that is not what I want, at all. Of course, I complain that I am sleep deprived, busy, sick of needy kids sometimes, never have time for myself etc. But if you ask me if I would have worked more(whether for the money, self development or just because i liked it), slept more, exercised more, spent more time away from them, or any other things that at certain moments were wishful thinking, but as for the big picture....no way! Lauren and kylie is what I do, because they matter a whole lot! Because I am a good mom, not that others are not. But i feel like I am good at raising and caring for children. And me stating that is huge for me. Because I am not good at admitting when i am good at something. Nor is being a parent, but especially a stay at home parent, a job that gets a lot of praise....ever (except.from my spouse occasionally). And no, just because they will be at school full time does that mean that I am done with my job. It is just going to be hard. I will miss them badly. I will hate when I cant help them or feed them! But, I will be so proud of them both for facing each day independently with their own unique strengths. I will be here for them in every other way I can, and probably most they wont notice. So, friends, next Wednesday call me, text me, email, whatever because I will be lost without them....if only temporarily.
Posted on: Thu, 14 Aug 2014 02:43:42 +0000
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