So its finally become the tipping point. I personally became so extremely exhausted from the all the post traumatic stress, and all the fighting. It seems like a constant fight with Eddies bio dad and his family. And it has been a constant fight to get what Eddie medically needs at the facility he lives. I became so sick, my parents told me to come home so they can take care of me. So I am gone for a couple weeks being nourished, and seeing doctors up here. It was the hardest decision to leave Eddie, but it became no choice. I cry as I write this because I miss him so much already. Eddies medical facility seems not to want to really see Eddie recover. They administer meds without consent, they leave him laying there covered in snot and drool with full diapers. His doctor I have seen maybe 20 min in the past 15 months. Last time I saw him was last December when he looked at me in my face and yelled Your son is brain damaged and will never breathe again! No joke! Eddie has been speeding along breathing on his own, but recently they have slowed his progress, not adding time when hes doing excellent, for no reason, it seems but to get back at me somehow. They treat me like a nuisance when Im there and falsely accuse me of disturbance. All I am simply doing is being a mother and trying to get my baby back. This place doesnt seem to care about these children recovering. They have no organization for parents to converse with the doctors. They have no support for the parents. If my child is not treated properly, not simply taken care of in the basic ways, especially given narcotics without my consent, and act like I am a nuisance, then Mother Bear is going to come out, and I dont see how thats wrong. Ive walked in twice to see his secretion jar full of blood, and nobody had noticed or did anything about it! Im sick of it! I dont know what else to do? How do I fight for my child without fighting??? Im so tired and stressed and physically and mentally sick of all this. They will never get in the way of taking care of my baby, nobody will, EVER! So I am up north at home with my family replenishing myself to be able to keep on fighting! My son will recover, with or without their help. Please pray that these people put personalities aside and regain hope and focus on these children! Please pray these doctors will be reignited with the fire of wanting to cure these kids. I especially want to say a big thank you to my girlfriends who are filling in for and spending time with Eddie... Mimi, Kezia, Julia, Isabel, Sarah, Leslie, and Jen. You are all my sisters and aunties to Eddie and Im so grateful for you! Please God, just take away all this fight. Let me be a mother like I need to be. Help remove obstacles that are getting in the way of my motherhood and my fight for my son. Please God, just ease it up a bit, please! Thank you!
Posted on: Thu, 02 Oct 2014 22:11:10 +0000
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