So, okay, the anxiety and stress is getting to me. I have no second thoughts about moving...thats not the case. But the reality of it is hitting hard now that it is only two weeks away. Today, I was driving by my old university and realized that this year, I will not be going to see the light display at Christmas like I have many years in the past, or checking out the luminaria display with to-go cups of hot cocoa with my parents when Morningside decks itself out for the city. And I thought to myself, I didnt realize...the last time I did that...was the last time I was *going* to do that. So many things we take for granted and never realize when it is we do it for the last time. We remember and celebrate the firsts, though. And I have had lots of those over the last year and a half...especially in the last six months. Ive enjoyed them, relished them, savored them. Ive created many memories and fully expect to make more sweet ones with Pat in Georgia. But yeah...some of the things I will be doing for the last time are kinda getting to me now. As much as Im looking forward to seeing Pat again on the 31st, Im also dreading the fact that it will be my last day at Helen Farabee...my last time to make coffee for the caffeine fiends that inhabit my hall. I didnt know that when Rhonda came back from Dallas after breaking her foot that it might be the last time I would work with her...because we dont know when she will be released to return to work...if it will be before I go. I know I will see my friends again and my family, too. But logistics for Christmas have already become so complicated that we cant all be together on Christmas Day anyway, so now there are new traditions to make. Is it weird that Im so happy about getting to make new ones with Pat, but also sad that some of the old ones are going away? I guess this is why someone coined the word bittersweet. Right now I feel like Bilbo Baggins...I am ready for this adventure...so long as I can go home and get my handkerchief first.
Posted on: Fri, 17 Oct 2014 03:19:56 +0000
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