Some ppl dont realise when ur being strong and they just think ur cold and heartless and try to kick you when ur down. I look back on the past two years and the shit I had from some vile evil ppl and I cant actually believe it happened. Its only now I look back and it feels like I watched someone else go thru all that. I mustv been so ill and down cos I look at me now and I look completely different to how I used to I stopped caring put on weight and lived in old tracksuits and stopped going out enjoying myself. Grief and depression is the worst things anyone can ever go through and I got thru it with no help and more shit then I shudv done. Im so glad iv got this baby on the way. Even though ash never suffered she used to say why do you always look sad mum. Iv never looked so rough in my life. I never used to cry I just hated everyone. Ill never stop grieving but I do feel different and not like I want to batter everyone that breathes. Its all thanks to this baby and ash and my lovely friends. I definitely gave up a long time ago but they all pulled me back up. I know this is soppy but I know ppl look and say shes changed. And thats why.but I dont care abt ppls opinions and never will but just so the dense ppl can get a grip on other ppls reality they might not be so vile to others in future(doubt it tho) and this aint no new me shit its just a thanks to the decent ppl I have around me and im finally working on getting life back up to where it was xxxx
Posted on: Tue, 01 Jul 2014 09:31:32 +0000