Sometimes I get really peeved when people call me lazy, or say I dont do anything because I dont have a job…Actually let me lay out a few facts for you. I WANT to work. Ive applied for loads of jobs, no one wants me. AT THE MOMENT (September 2013 to September 2014 School year in the UK) I have taken a year out to sort out my depression and anxiety problems. And ive been getting sick with other problems lately, and Im in a wheel chair a LOT more than I would be normally. This is life, sometimes life beats you down. And you have to sort your head out WHATEVER means necessary to figure out what it is you want out of life. So whilst people think Im lazy or a dead beat, Im actually figuring my life out and trying to beat the sicknesses inside me. Because actually Im not just festering, I walk EVERY day. I push my body to its limits so Im puffing and breathless, I have so many lung spasms when Im walking it feels like youve been stabbed. And at the moment its even harder with these unknown heart problems that have hit me…So no Im not just a dead beat actually. Im out pushing myself, pushing my organs to limits to the point where Im past crying! So me being lazy for hours is actually me RECOVERING from me pushing myself too HARD. But I know all I can do is carry on pushing my lungs, joints and heart at the moment because if I stop pushing all together my body will just shrivel. Of course having a day off like I did today from walking isnt a bad thing! I felt to weak to today. But tomorrow Ill walk again! I wish people could understand what its like having organs that dont work properly. Just like its hard for overweight people to walk, its hard for disabled people to! Weather it be physically visible like swollen joints, amputees, scars, burns ext…Its also difficult for people like me! Whos problems are on the inside! People cannot see how you feel or whats wrong with you, so just assume youre lazy, or youre not really sick enough to be in a wheel chair when you cant even walk around the house some days…If only people knew hey? This isnt a rant by the way! This is just me saying that disabled people are NOT lazy. They are recovering a lot of the time! So be careful what you say to them! And about the job thing, Im going to uni or college in September! So Ill be about a lot more then! Ive sort of figured out what it is I want to do now!
Posted on: Wed, 26 Mar 2014 22:24:10 +0000
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