Sometimes I just need remind my self that I am a strong young woman and I have a good future ahead of me and I work hard, and I am going to places with my life and I shouldnt focus on what others have to say about me, no matter how close to home they are, and I shouldnt degrade my self to that maturity level because words no matter how cruel or malicious they may be cannot define my intentions or me as a person. I just cant wait to get out of this horrible town and start all over again. There are too many memories here and people that can alter my personality and bring out my hatred and the side of me that I cant control and I hate, I just want the luxury of not knowing anyone and just starting over again. 2014 is going to be a brilliant year and possibly my best career wise. My artwork is being featured by a journalist in a magazine which Im really happy about, a possible T-shirt company might be created again, and I enroll at the sixth best art school in the UK were I will own my own studio and have all the creative freedom that I desire along with access to incredible facilities, outstanding lecturers, famous visiting artists such as Tracy Emmin and Laura Provest and a gallery to curate my work in whenever I like, along with a wonderful city full of intellect, charisma, culture, adventure and endless possibilities. Life is good at the moment and being introverted isnt so bad either, haha. Its surreal how certain shenanigans in life can be a reminder of just how lucky you are as a person and despite what others have to say, your hard work is starting to show for its self and it just feels really good and rewarding because it just seems like youve worked so hard and faced so many hardships, disappointments ,injustices and heartbreak in comparison to other people to get to this point in life, but you battled through it, and it is finally starting to pay off. I know for a fact that my Mum would be proud of me if she was still here, although I have made a few mistakes that I am not too proud of that have lead me up to this point in my life and I have been naive and self centered at times, which I can still occasionally be, but I wouldnt take any of it back because it was a learning curve, and I needed to face disappointment and heartbreak to realize that the world wont be fair with me, if I am fair with the world. The future is so exciting. It just needs to hurry up, or I need to preoccupy my time to make sure that these six months just fly by. Im ready to take on the world, lets start a revolution, Ok, thats going a bit too far. One step at a time Elaina. AHDGQYGFUYQGEFUYQTGEYFGUYJG 6 BLOODY MONTHS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! GET ME OUT OF HERE.
Posted on: Wed, 19 Mar 2014 07:09:26 +0000
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