Spent Christmas Eve alone yesterday. Spending Christmas alone tonight. I received no presents or Christmas cards (yet). And as sad as all this might seem to others, to me, its really not at all. I dont really need any gifts (I buy everything I want for myself anyway) and, I know Im loved, without a shadow of a doubt, and thats really all I need. Its actually been a wonderful couple of days... Unlike most, I dont mind being alone AT ALL. In fact, as time goes on, I like it more and more. I enjoy dining by myself, seeing movies alone, and traveling alone. This isnt saying that I dont enjoy the company of other people, I do, Ive just never relied on the presence of someone else to feel complete. Theres pros and cons to having it both ways. I know, Im weird. I joked with someone today that eventually Ill lock myself off in a room somewhere like Howard Hughes, never cut my nails and urinate into bottles, but really, thats not true. Im not depressed and I dont hear (that many) voices. I do have a tendency to talk to myself a bit, and to my dog Max a lot. Besides, I spent Christmas week last year on a whirlwind New York City vacation, with Broadway and other shows two or three times a day, which was incredible, and so, this year, I just wanted some peace and quiet. Which I thankfully got. Its great for reminiscing and introspection. I can slow down, walk the island, and appreciate the twinkling Christmas lights everywhere this year. I dont want them to go away. All this being said, I do miss my mom, at whose home I spent the last ten or so Christmases before my New York trip, miss my kids, with and for whom I spent 25 or 30 Christmases before that, and miss my brothers and sisters with whom I spent all my childhood Christmases. I wish everyone in Facebookland a very Merry Christmas tonight, whether youre alone or with those you love... And somebody buy me a bottle of Lagavulin next year! Merry Christmas!!
Posted on: Fri, 26 Dec 2014 01:39:46 +0000