Spent all weekend reflecting on my life over the past 365 days... What a wild ride. I take pride in being a genuinely happy person, making the best of a difficult situation, and find humor in just about everything. Ask anyone. However, in the first few days of 2014 when the rest of the world was making positive resolutions, I had difficult and painful decisions to make. For the first time ever I was unhappy, I had been for a very long time. I had a neglectful fiancé addicted to the gym and steroids who had become more of a roommate, my health was failing and I had been misdiagnosed more than once, my anxiety was through the roof, and I knew things had to change. So, I left everything and moved back home to San Diego. I lost my relationship of 7 years, 2 of my kids, my home, most of my belongings, my savings, my car, my creativity, and something far worse I cannot mention on social media. In this process I became withdrawn, shut out family and friends, and believe I reached the darkest parts if myself. And yet, 2014 was a blessing just the same. I chose solitude over drowning my sorrows with partying or dating, I am comfortable in the silence, I know my worth and my heart, I am healthy again, I love my new job, I like coming home to a tiny apartment over a 3,000 sf house, my expensive ass German transmission rebuild is almost done, I have unwaivering support and unconditional love from my parents, family and closest friends, Rich and I are on great terms and I wish him nothing but love. So today I send my deepest appreciation to those who reminded me to kick harder every time I felt like I was drowning... Your words of encouragement kept me at the surface long enough to breathe. And here I am, still swimming. Happy. Happier. Looking forward to all the happiness 2015 will bring. Happy New Year all. Xoxo
Posted on: Mon, 05 Jan 2015 06:32:38 +0000
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