Staring at the walls to pass the time. Pinch myself make sure Im still alive. Im not alright. Its become a disguise. Friends and family, Im losing all ties. Staring at the walls to pass the time. Pinch myself; make sure Im still alive. Ive been here before. I will survive another month under gray skies. Im holding on as a tight as I can. The monotony never seems to end. Every day feels the same. Every day I think about the place Id rather be than here. Ive been here before. I will survive another month under these grey skies. Weve carried each other through and over the seas. We live for nights like this. The ones we wont forget. I hope to open my eyes to see this picture. Im throwing it all away. I hope to open my eyes to see this moment that I should treasure forever. Staring at the walls to pass the time. Pinch myself; make sure Im still alive. Im not alright. Its become a disguise. Friends and family, Im losing all ties. Im holding on as tight as I can. Coming home, I dont know when. Im holding on as tight as I can. I swear. My dearest love, I woke up tired today, even more so than yesterday. How thats possible, I dont even know, nor do I want to. Its hard to find the motivation when you are this drained. My body aches but Im used to feeling this way. Seventeen down, seventeen to go. Thats not so bad, right? I think of home often and of you even more. Yesterday I saw the sun shining. It appeared for a few minutes just after two. For a moment I found myself smiling, as if those short rays of light were enough to get me by. Maybe that was enough. Thank God, I needed that. I surely needed that.
Posted on: Wed, 05 Nov 2014 04:05:44 +0000