Stupidly I called my friend Eric for FEAR I might hurt mysefl given the SHAME of voluntarily flirting with a KNOWN married man--Ihad not done such a thing but ONCE in my entire life and seeing how itd hurt us all bowed NEVER to do it agian----------I can forgive myslef flirting with liars who hide a marriag or calim to be divorcing ---but NOT flirting with a happily wed man wearing a ring...........And yet Eric kept saying you didnt do anything wrong its all nothing, means NOYHING, there was NO INFIDELITY----------well ofcourse hed say that-he has a a wife and has had countless affairs---------but I am not like that--------I really like married couples like Anne and Eric or my grandparents or parents or their friends..........I hate it when others tempt couples--------I neverunderstood when I was younger but I did once I wed STEVE-I never wnted to lose him.............I never wanted t lose Jerry--------------and the thought of other women hugging those menhurts me to this day--I just try no to think about it........So I dont want to be the skank hurtingsome trusting wife madly in love..........Nothing Eric said then could help me..........Maybe only writing the truth here of I am so sorry and so ashamed.........I hate him for thinking me a motel slut and hate myself for finding SKIN or a face sl handosme I almist became one or had to run away................
Posted on: Fri, 01 Nov 2013 03:54:42 +0000
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