Sunday night 1/11/15 Its about that time when I start to feel the anxiety and sadness that has piled up from the days events. Every day something new. Im presently taking a breather by hydrating and eating. My kids sit next to me. Alessandra asked me if mommy is getting better. It is challenging to explain. I think Ill set up that appointment and speak with my therapist . It is no secret. We should all have one. I will not loose it, I will not give up. I will always stay strong for you❤️. Carmen Ramirez-Salazar and I made a pact, a pact stay strong if one of us left this earth first. We had many a conversation about Death and Dying. It is difficult to picture the rest of my life without her. I will always honor you babe! Always. I will continue to be Me. Remain in my ZEN. I will not loose myself. I will stay away from the darkness. I will continue to practice to stay positive. Oh boy.... I just realized my throat is very soar from speaking and my eyes sore from typing. I need to breath. I feel better now..Alessandra just made me laugh. Shes a blessing. I get confused at times. Should I cry now or wait until Im alone? Babe, I miss you. Us. Talking. Dancing. Sitting on the couch with Alessandra and playing with her feet. Or laughing in bed. Sweet. Sweet love. I want to put a new house music mix for you. I kept telling you I had a new mix for you but didnt get around to it. Ill do it soon ok. ❤️🎶 Te amo tanto, tanto, tanto. That will be it for now. Ill write to you again in the morning. Busy day for us tomorrow. I love you!
Posted on: Mon, 12 Jan 2015 04:38:59 +0000